Julianne Hough felt she "didn't deserve" the lifestyle she led with Ryan Seacrest.
The 32-year-old dancer was in a relationship with the presenter for three years until 2013 and she recalled how, when she was single again, she was determined to work hard and "create" the lavish way of living she'd experienced when she was dating the 45-year-old broadcaster.
Speaking with influencer Valeria Lipvetsky on Instagram Live, she said: "It was 2013 and I had just gotten out of a relationship that was very high profile.
"“I was on private planes and yachts and living in a very, very well-off house and my life was pretty different from where I grew up. … I had just gotten out of that relationship because I wanted to create that for myself because I kind of felt like I didn’t deserve it. Like, I didn’t earn that, so now I need to go and create that for myself.”
The former 'Dancing With the Stars' professional - who never mentioned Ryan by name - admitted she lost her sense of self at the time.
Julianne explained that, during the relationship, she found herself steering away from "iving in a state of perfection and image and doing everything the right way.”
She added: "I kind of just was like, ‘f*** it. I’m just going to do things where I’m not going to necessarily overthink them to make sure that I’m doing everything perfect and right.
“And that year, I kind of got a little lost. … I was like, ‘I’m 24 and I don’t really know who Julianne is.’”
Julianne went on to marry Brooks Laich in 2017 but they split earlier this year and she recently filed for divorce.