Cara Delevingne thought being gay was a "mental illness".

Cara Delevingne

Cara Delevingne

The 'Carnival Row' actress - who came out as pansexual soon after she split from Ashley Benson - admitted she was convinced there was "something wrong" with her when she was younger because of her sexuality and though she's "struggled" with emotional issues and depression for several years, she tries to help herself to be more positive.

She said: “The journey has obviously been a long one. I’ve struggled with it since I was a kid. It also comes from things like trauma and having addiction in my family.

“There are so many reasons why, instead of pointing the finger and going, ‘I’m sick’. I don’t take antidepressants, I try as much as I can to use the tools within me and not just think, ‘I’m sick and f***ed up’.

“Honestly, my whole life I thought being gay was a mental illness. I thought I was sick, I thought there was something wrong with me, being queer.

“Any of those things. It was the same with depression. It’s OK to go through that, everyone does at some point. It’s being able to talk about it that’s given me the tools to find people to talk to about it.”

The 28-year-old model-and-actress "can't wait" to have cosmetic surgery and she has promised that when she does go under the knife, she'll be open and honest about it as she feels it's "really important" for young people to know the truth.

Speaking on the 'Make It Reign' podcast, she said: “If I have work done, I’ll talk about it. I find it really important for young girls, particularly at the moment, to have someone who would go and have something and then talk about it afterwards.

“It’s as if it’s frowned upon, because it comes from a place of deep insecurity.

"Ever since I was a kid I was like, ‘I want to have a boob job. My boobs are uneven. I don’t like my nose’. All these different things.

“I’ve got close to thinking about it but luckily in that moment I’ve gone, ‘Well, if I was to do it I don’t think I could be honest about it and then that would be a problem’.

“I just think young girls and boys need to know that some things just aren’t naturally obtainable. Which is fine, that’s modern science, that’s OK. What makes it sad is people don’t talk about it.

“I can’t wait to have something done but I don’t know when that might be because I have to act. The problem is I can’t not move my face because that’s the only thing I have, to be able to move my face really weirdly and in different ways.

“I’d be worried I wouldn’t be able to do that.”


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